My wife and I have been friends since University days. We lost touch after service year. But fate brought us together three years later. She was not married,I was not. We became romantically linked.
I discovered when I was a teenager that I had a small organ. I became worried and used all kinds of remedy but nothing worked. It affected my self esteem for a long time. It made me stay away from ladies. People thought it was because I was a born again christian but I was just too ashamed.
During my service year though,I lost my virginity to a lady in my place of assignment. The lady did not mind that I was small. She was just into me. But broke up with her when I found out that she sleeps with pretty much anything and anyone.
When my wife and I reconnected,I wanted to tell her about my organ but I felt if she loved me enough,she would not mind. At least,I could still perform. She was actually shocked when we got married when she saw my size. I explained to her that it didn’t mean anything but she felt betrayed.
Every time,I try my best to satisfy her by ensuring we try several different s*x styles,just so that she does not feel disadvantaged. By God’s grace,we have 2 children. I thought everything is ok until my wife started going to this new saloon in our area. Most ladies went there cos it was fanciful and all that.
I noticed my wife would go there and spend the entire day there. Thereafter,she began to come home with different products saying a woman she met in the saloon was selling the product for small p*nis. I warned her that she should leave all those products as they don’t work but she wont listen.
Now,my wife is giving me attitude after six years of marriage. That I am selfish and I do not want to get a solution to my problem. I ignore her but she seems not to care. Now,I am beginning to suspect that she may be seeing someone else or is planning to if she has not started. Its been like three months and we have had not had s*x.
She no longer cares. When I touch her,she pushes me away. And even insults me. I am a 35 old man. I have suffered alot as a young man. I feared this would happen to me but I was also hoping the woman I married would be understanding but I guess I was wrong.
I am no longer happy in my marriage. I cannot talk to anyone about our problem because I am ashamed of my situation.Maybe I should just let her go and start life afresh?Please advice me.
Roy (Not real name)