Good afternoon ma,
I need your advise. Please post anonymously too. I am a born again Christian by the grace of God. Ever since I gave my life,I never gave my body to any man. Even when the pressure was much cos of age,I maintained myself.
Last year,a brother ,a very serious brother in church approached me for marriage. I used to wonder why he was not married cos age too was bot on his side.
The brother is like every woman’s dream for husband. He is very careful, thoughtful and kind.very spiritual. He prays alot and encourages me to be a better Christian.
Our spiritual leaders have given their blessings too. My parents love him and I love him. Our engagement was very beautiful. He made sure it was memorable.
I have been dreaming of the day of our wedding. The day we would be allowed to make love and be ready to live the rest of our lives happily.
Until last week, my fiance called me and said we needed to tall about something. First, he knelt down and told me to forgive him for what he was going to tell me.
I became panicky. I kept asking him what it wrong. I was afraid that he was going to break up with me. I prayed and prayed under my breath. And the he told me…
My fiance told me that he wanted to tell me the truth before we get married. He has a small manhood. He was born with a small one. He said he has tried everything medically but no headway. He has given himself to God for a miracle.
This secret is what has kept him from getting married. He said the last lady he wanted to marry, left him when he told her. So he decided to be alone until God told him I am his wife.
He said another pastor confirmed it. I asked him does that mean we cant have a child, he said we can still have a child but intercourse will not be very enjoyable. I cried and cried. He said it’s ok if I want to break up but I should know that God told him am his wife.
To be honest,God also revealed to me in a dream that this is my husband. Now,I am confused and shattered. I feel hopeless. I have been reading and researching. Asking medical professionals. They all say the same thing.
If we marry,we can still have a child but not through intercourse, maybe through IVF. So, the only issue is,we may not be able to enjoy sex throughout our marriage.
My fiance said to me that he will permit me as a husband to pleasure itself howevr I want when we get married even if I want to make love to another man. That he will tell God that he gave me he permission. As long as I stay married to him and not reveal to anyone the issue.
My pastor’s wife gave me a revelation that God said I should not break up. That marriage is not all about sex. That she and her husband do not alwsy have sex cos he has erectile dysfunction. He can produce sperm but cannot last long.That she uses sex toys to pleasure herself. The have 2 children though.
I want to make up my mind to go on with the marriage but I am sad. My friend is advising against it. She says I will be tempted to cheat when we get married and even if my husband said he wont mind,he might change his mind later…by that time…it will be too late and I will be stuck in the marriage.
I am scared. I want to please God based on the many revelations I have received. I love my fiance…he is a very good man but I dont know what the future holds for us. I have fasted and prayed about this…
It seems God is still ok with me marrying my fiance but I am scared…cos I know if my faith cant carry it…i might fall…what do I do…please advise me..
I want to know if I go ahead if my faith can carry me when the challenges come later…will I be faithful..will I long for another man with a bigger organ?. Can I cope? Will change his mind about pleasuring myself other ways?…I also dont want to Miss the will of God for me…
Please post,I know many believers are on your platform..let them pray for me and also advise me.
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