I need your help. A few weeks ago,I stumbled on your platform and I must tell you that I have been really blessed by this platform. The articles and personal stories from the members of this platform has helped me a great deal. I feel like finally,I am where people can understand me and my feelings.
My name is Ann (Not real name). I am 29 years old. I got married last year. I was raised as a good Christian girl and to the glory of God,I kept myself until marriage. My husband is my first and so everything I learnt about s*x,I learnt from him. To be honest,I have never seen a male organ before my husband’s own.
My wedding night was a nightmare. I was so scared. A 28 year old virgin. Even though my husband tried to help me,I cried all night. It was horrible. Because of this,I started to read and make my own research about s*x. But one year later,I think I am still a prude and even though I trust my husband,he is beginning to feel frustrated with me.
Because of my upbringing,I am even afraid to discuss this with anyone in my environment. I feel sx is my duty as a wife. I do not know how other women enjoy it. It is scary for me. I close my eyes and clench all through. And the worst of all is,I feel dirty after sx with my husband. I know that should not be the case but that is exactly how I feel.
I tried to apply some of the suggestions I got from my research . I read articles and watch romantic movies. But it still does not feel good with my husband. I got pregnant seven months ago and now,I do not even want to be touched by my husband. Even though,at the ante natal,we are taught that pregnancy s*x is safe but I do not enjoy it at all.
What do I do ma? I want to enjoy sx. The other day,I caught my husband masturbating. He said he does it to release himself so that he will not go out and sin against God. I was so sad to hear that yet I still do not fancy the idea of sx.
All my life,I was taught that sx was a sin. Do not touch the opposite sx and all. I remained chaste. Now,I feel like I will never be able to enjoy sx the way other people do. Please help me. I want to enjoy sx and I want my husband to enjoy me and our marriage.
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