God bless you for the great work you are doing. Your story have so much to learn from both married and singles.
I have been married for over seven years now and we are childless.
I don’t know if this is as a result of the sins we committed before we got married.
I and Chika met in my 100 level at the Ambrose Alli University Edo State and fell helplessly in love with each other. As young teenager we couldn’t control our feelings for each other as well as our s*xual appetite. But something strange, each time he touches me (we had s*x) I immediately take in. But because we were immature and freshers in school we had no choice but to abort. This continued, and before we know it we have had several abortion and soon it became nothing to us .Infact , by the time we where graduating I had had seven abortions. The abortion became our bond as Chika knew he couldn’t leave me for another lady. The last one we had we was during my youth service. We wanted to keep it, but because of the fear of my church and the same it will cause my parents because they are elders in church, We had to get rid of it as my parents church will conduct a test before wedding any couples.
We have been married for seven years now and the whole thing has turned around. No sign of pregnancy. We have been to several hospital for medical check up and the doctor certified both of us okay. But the mystery is, it’s not entering anymore as usual.
My mother in-laws visited some week ago and was asking if there was any problem, then she concluded by saying Peace please give me grand children because time is going. Surprisingly Chika my husband said please tell her. I was shocked to my bones. I thought i didn’t hear my husband right. That night, i confronted him and to make matters worse he added to my fears by saying to me to do something as though i am responsible for the childless situation
Truth be told, I didn’t envisage this when I was doing all the abortions because i was so naive and in experienced. I cry helplessly every night praying God for forgiveness and asking for a second chance.
Please does it mean my husband thinks am responsible for our present predicament? Will this affect us in the long run as we are not close as usual since this ugly incident. Am going into depression. Please help me out.